Ashamed:
"Can you please tell me why I am in so much pain? Why when I give someone my soul they just throw it away?!? Away.. like everything, and people just want to manipulate you, control all of your actions then lie to you, and make you feel worthless, like you deserve it, along with all the pain they make you feel each day.
Why am I like this? Why am I hating all of the things that I said I used to love? All I know is I never will give a fuck about those who have used me, and made me enamored with the fact that I'm torn apart by anxiety! The image is in my head, when she sways in the wind, and I'm ashamed of all of my sins, she screams as she gives in to them. I am weakened and awoken by hatred for giving away all of my trust, to the monsters that lurk in impure hearts, I know the creatures that humans truly are. Why does everyone want to watch you bleed? While they sit back and watch others feed on what's left of your torn flesh? No one really loves unless you're at your best, that's why I have accepted that I won't be loved, since I am nothing but worthless scum. I find it kind of funny that you want to say that you are the victim when I'm your prey. No one loves you when you're down, that's why we are all broken now, and this world is falling apart like the pieces of our shattered hearts. I'm a beast that's why I am weak, since the sins of flesh always consume me. How can you taste of my blood, then spit it in my face and call that love? And people question why I am broken, when it's just natural erosion from this disease that eats at me, and the pain I feel each day. That's why I hate waking up, and all the time I feel like giving up, and I just can't take it anymore!!!! This world is full of liars and whores!!!
That's why I'm ashamed of ever giving my love away to the undeserving that only try to use me. That's why I'll die alone, that's why I choose to be alone. That's why I'll die alone, that's why I choose to be alone."
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